| tonight is all about i miss u... i miss u |
[Aug. 27th, 2005|07:54 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | fall out boy- track 5 (old Cd) dont know the name lol | ] |
ok so last night i get a call from daniela and shes all like lets hang out and i'm all like i cant cause i have a phyisical agility test for the fire academy tomorrow... well you know what sucks... it was cancelled! i wake up at 6 in the morning on a saturday just to drive 30 mins to get there and cancel plans with the amazing daniela for what?!?!... just to have my buddy kenny yost (the instructor there) outside the gates sending everyone home. atleast i got to sit and talk to him for about 10 mins and help him send everyone away lol. but after that i decide to go to the gym since i'm up... well i get to my gym at like 7:30 and guess what time it opens on the weekend, thats right 8 lol. this morning just isnt quite working out for me lol... i need a hug! peace! |
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| you keep talking but all i'm hearing is blah blah blah i'm a dirty tramp! |
[Aug. 12th, 2005|02:31 pm] |
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I would just like to start of my journal by saying i am still hopelessly head over heals for Liz, and i would just like to continue my opening statement by saying...NOT!!! lol haha that was mean but it should be worth a comment! lol jk i do <3 u liz. anyways on a less random note, i'm happy becuase i got compliments on my singing voice yesterday lol... oh wait that was still totally random. ok i promise this isnt going to be random, ah shit i dont think i can say anything without it being random, so you know what fuck it, i'm going to be completely random this whole entry!! MUAHAHAHAAHAHAHAH <- evil laugh. so last night i went to sleep at 12 hoping that i would wake up early in the morning but instead i slept all the way till 2 so now i'm sooo fucking hyper its not even funny, thats why this entry is so fucked up lol. ok i think its about time for me to go to the gym.. which reminds me, i have to start my freaking cut cycle. for you people who dont know what a cut cycle is, its a 2-3 week period where you just try to lose weight or fat and get cut up. it involves alot of cardio (ie running and other boring crap lol) and also doing sets of weigh with 30 reps... you know how long i'm at the gym for when i do my damn cut cycles??? like 2 1/2 hours at a time, its too much time lol, oh well it needs to be done! ok comment at will, please! peace lovers! |
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| I"m back mother fuckers!!! |
[Aug. 8th, 2005|02:58 pm] |
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Hello all my fellow livejournal people... in the past couple of months, my life has been soooo busy that i have completely forgotten that there was a website called livejournal.com but under recent events (mostly everyone going back to school and my ass waking up at 2 in the afternoon with nothing to do) i have now returned and hopefully will be posting the best entries ever (hopefully while i'm drunk late at night). so i guess i'm back to being able to post emo ass entries and have anonymous people leave fucking gay comments LOL. i'm looking forward to it. ok and my first emo entry will start now... all my wonderful sexy hair has been chopped off and now i have short ugly hair! oh well it had to be done, i have to look nice and "clean" for when i go into the fire achedemy next month... ok my loves thanks for reading and leave me comments so i have something to do! peace! |
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| Loosing my first crush |
[Mar. 7th, 2005|12:55 am] |
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RIP Nikki, i love you and as do so many more people , i hope you can see this screen from heaven.
You never know how hard it can be till it happens to you. Cherish (however you spell that) you loved ones and friends cuase they are all we have in this life and once you lose them you cant fathom how lonely it really is.
Its soo hard to know that was the last time i'd see her. No more starbucks, no more feeding rabbits that run loose in chapel trail, no more parties, no more seeing your beautiful face, no more memories. It doesnt seem real and i know once it settles in its going to hurt even more.
And i'd like to thank the friends and family that i still have with me for being there to make this day the best that i would possibly make it. Without you guys, i'd be drinking away what i dont wanna feel inside. you all are the best.
If this entry doesnt make anysense i'm sorry, my mind is not all with me right now and i feel like i'm rambling.
I'll love you and remember you always and forever. God will keep you safe till we can see eachother again.
still praying |
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| Life throws you curves, but you learn to swerve |
[Feb. 28th, 2005|09:24 pm] |
Live can really suck sometimes... if you believe in God please pray for me and the following:
My Grandma, just found out shes going have surgery soon (its about time she really needs it) but what i didnt know what how little her chances are survival are. Their really low and even had trouble finding a doctor to perform becuase they are so low. Please pray for her
Also my friend Nikki. She was in a really bad car accident and she in cridical condition. If she makes it through tonight she should survive. She had many broken bones, severe head trama and may lose partial to full sight in one eye. Pray for her Please.
Please pray for these people, they both mean alot to me, and i'm really emotionally confused about how to feel with these events so please prey for me. Remember God can work miricles. |
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[Feb. 27th, 2005|10:11 pm] |
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| |  pleased | ] |
My hopes are so high, so why dont you kill me already?
Hands Down, thats all that needs to be said. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 23rd, 2005|10:34 pm] |
TOP 10 Irish sayings (keep in mind i didnt make these up these are actually celtic sayings)
10. When we drink, we get drunk.
When we get drunk, we fall asleep.
When we fall asleep, we commit no sin.
When we commit no sin, we go to heaven.
So, let's all get drunk, and go to heaven!
9. Maybe it's bred in the bone, but the sound of pipes is a little bit of heaven to some of us.
8. Here's to me, and here's to you,
And here's to love and laughter-
I'll be true as long as you,
And not one moment after
7. May you melt off the earth like snow off the ditch! (thats an irish curse lol)
6.Here's to our wives and girlfriends: May they never meet!
5.We'll drink and drink and drink and drink and drink and drink and fight! We'll drink and drink and drink and drink and drink and drink and fight! And if i find a pretty girl I'll sleep with her tongiht, oh We'll drink and drink and drink and drink and drink and drink and fight! (compliments of FLoggin molly)
4.It is sweet to drink but bitter to pay for.
3.May those who love us, love us. And those who dont love us, may God turn their hearts. And if he doesn't turn their hearts, may he turn thier ankles, so we'll know them by their limp.
2.Only Irish coffee provides in a single glass all four essential food groups: alcohol, caffeine, sugar, and fat.
1.'Drink it back and don't let it up again!'
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[Feb. 23rd, 2005|07:36 pm] |
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GRRR just found out that i cant go to UCF this weekend to see flogging molly cuase i have to visit my Grandma cuase shes gonna have sergury soon and probably wont make it (shes in really bad condition). so now i'm gonna be stuck in pines the whole weekend, probably depressed after seeing my Grandma and i'll have nothing to do, so if you want please call me to do something this weekend or else i might go crazy. I want to go to the beach, at night, and get pizza. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 23rd, 2005|06:27 pm] |
- went to UCF last weekend... saw old friend and taste of choas tour. Good times
-so confused about some things that will remained unsaid
-i want icecream really bad... i'll pay with my ATM card, LOL sorry inside joke
-going back up to UCF this weekend (hopefully)
-going to see flogging molly (irish punk band)
-i'm making myself a kilt for st. patty's day, me and russell are gonna wear ours together, i'm scared hes gonna try to get revenge, last year i took a upskirt pic with vivians camera and everyone saw is balls
-i need money bad... need a job or else i'll be forced to sell my body ... scary!! lol
-i miss seeing all my old friends
-i want to take a trip down to the keys for a weekend, let me know if anyone wants to join. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 14th, 2005|04:10 pm] |
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| |  estatic cant you tell? lol | ] |
Heres alittle song i wrote on my guitar a couple of days ago... i think it shoulds pretty good and i think i did a decent job on the lyrics i really havent reviewed it or anything i just played it, sung it, and now posted it... comment on what you think about it. and if your nice i'll play and sing it for you so you can hear the guitar part with it.
I wanted to know everything about you that I could
Like would you let me fall, if I was to dive right in
And would you break my heart but leave me smiling at the end
Another heart lead disaster of the flesh
But in the end, can we really say it was for the best
and are you really happy with who we are after this test
of love and lost and broken hearts and tears shed at night when were all alone
now look me in the eyes and tell me...is this what you wanted from me?
I opened myself and told you everything I felt
And made myself vulnerable, you just turned your back and walked away
And the blade you left in my back is just out of my reach
But in the end, can we really say it was for the best
and are you really happy with who we are after this test
of love and lost and broken hearts and tears shed at night when were all alone
now look me in the eyes and tell me...is this what you wanted from me?
And on this valentines day
my heart will bleed for every thorn
on every rose, that I would have given to you
But just like those roses
my feeling for you will wither away
and I’ll forget your name...
Maybe by next valentines day |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 30th, 2005|11:29 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
I just wanna know if anyone actually noticed i left for 5 months... and if they would notice if i left again... sometimes i seriously doubt it. Me being here is pointless, I do nothing special for anyone. I seriously think i'm going to leave far away for college next year... i was think of trying to get a baseball scholarship for first base to like San Deigo University. I can just go there and start a new, make friends that might actually call me on occasion, just to say hi and nothing more. Or maybe i can find someone to care back who knows. I dont wanna put this on everyone cuase i mean there are a very very select few who actually mean something to me and vise-versa, if you have to think if its you or not... its not. But as of right now... my life is pointless, its objectives are to wake up do pointless stuff and fall asleep, nothing that i do here has any purpose in anyones life...i'm out. |
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[Jan. 24th, 2005|01:22 pm] |
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Got me some new tattoos... I'm happy about it. I'm getting more and more used to them everyday and the more i see them the more i like them so i'm happy...and if you have seen them and you dont like them... well you can fuck off ;). k bye |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2005|10:11 pm] |
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I'm so confused... I'm not sure what the hell i want from a girl. I mean the feeling of having someone who i can do the stupidest shit with and still feel like i was the happiest guy in the world is a great feeling.. but do i really wanna feel that way. Do i wanna allow myself to feel for someone when i know it could just end bloody and hurt me like i've been hurt before? or would i rather eliminate the feeling of happiness? I mean i was doing fine just living alone... not worring about emotions or feeling loved.. and now i dont have a choice... but should i stop myself before i develope serious feelings? especially if i dont know if that person will ever feel the same way back? i dont know.. i'm just rambling i guess... i needed somewhere to vent. These are all rhetorical statements that are words of my confusion, one day i'll take the broken puzzle and make a masterpiece... one day. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2005|12:18 am] |
Would you know my name if I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same if I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
here in heaven.
Would you hold my hand if I saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand if I saw you in heaven?
I'll find my way through night and day,
'Cause I know I just can't stay
here in heaven.
Time can bring you down, time can bend your knees.
Time can break your heart, have you begging please,
begging please.
Beyond the door there's peace I'm sure,
And I know there'll be no more
tears in heaven.
Would you know my name if I saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same if I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong
here in heaven. |
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| just type what comes to your head |
[Dec. 31st, 2004|01:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | thoughtful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | yellow card - cigarette | ] |
ok i'm gonna do a free lance update, inother words i'm just gonna type what comes to my head.... lets get poetic.
The new years is a time to start a new, and forget about the dumb shit that you used to do. Like the times u fucked up... said some shit you didnt mean... but now its O.K cuase your slate is now clean. The hearts that you've broke and maybe yours too...will all heal alittle with a few stitches that are new. Forget about the times that you exploded, there on the sceen, cuase jealously's a monster whos big, ugly, and green. (time to pause to tell everyone that i feel like doctor suess lol) But even though this day allows for starting new, you must never forget the things closest to you. Your friends who were there on the times you fucked up, who told you not to worry and poured the rest of THEIR beer in your half empty cup. Or your family that stayed when you got your heart broke, and tried to cheer you up with every possible corny joke. Or when you exploded, the ones that never left your side... well thanks for all the help but now its your time. So on this new years eve when its time to start a new, my resolution will be... to raise this glass and drink to the fact that i'll never forget you!!!
I love you all!!! your the only things that keep me going!!! |
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[Dec. 27th, 2004|01:10 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | i'm super happy cant ya tell? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the sound of my heart wither away into nonexistance | ] |
ok so it seems like my whole life right now is a dissapointment. reasons why....
1. i'm girl friend retarded and no body loves me
2. my only really good christmas present doesnt even work!
3. my friends forgot to invite me to their christmas party and i felt really left out but its ok i know what happened and its cool. i just felt alone at the time.
4. i can never pitch again without serious reconstructive surgery that i dont have money to get
5. well five is just hat my life sucks right now lol
so yeah as you can see i'm not in the best of moods and thats why this entry is sooo depressing. so yeah i think im going to run away from everything and reside in the woods away from everyone and live off of eating treebark. |
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[Dec. 20th, 2004|08:49 pm] |
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| |  sad and lonely | ] |
One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
Two can be as bad as one
It's the loneliest number since the number one
No is the saddest experience you'll ever know
Yes, it's the saddest experience you'll ever know
'Cause one is the loneliest number that you'll ever do
One is the loneliest number, whoa-oh, worse than two
It's just no good anymore since you went away
Now I spend my time just making rhymes of yesterday
It's just no good anymore since you went away |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 15th, 2004|07:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Please Come to Boston - I'm thinking about you Daniela | ] |
just forget me its that simple.
SO its 7 oclock and i'm too fucking lazy to get up and get ready to find somthing to do tonight. maybe i'll just practice for my concert or work on nats xmas present. who knows. mabye i'll count the popcorn thingies on my ceiling, i'm sure that will past time. yeah so this is like a vicious cycle that never ends. I'm so bored that it's made me lazy, so know i dont do anything cuase i'm lazy which makes me more bored which in turn makes me lazier. holy confusing batman. talking about super hero's. Why do they all have to wear spandex. Why cant they be normal and wear shit like the punisher does??? you wanna know why... cuase all the fucking comic book makers are perverts and want to show little kids what grown men's packages in tights look like. sick fucks. lol see how bored i am. lets talk about other things that i dont like........ ooohhh idk maybe.... oooohhh i know....waiting in the office of the BCC building for 55 mins just to be helped and it only take 5 mins. that wasnt much fun.
So i've come to the conclusion that i need a tan, becuase...well i'm white. Yes i am proud of the whiteness cuase it reps the irish but its gotta go, i got shamrocks to do that for me now. so anyone wanna go to the beach hold on hold on, i'm gonna be ghetto.... holla at cha boy. oh yeah whos a thug now.
ok update on the concert, the cost is going to be donations only becasue well i know the music isnt going to be all that well so i figure you guys can give me what its worth. and hey i figure if you guys have a few good laughs at how much i such then its well paid for. but so far i only have a few songs. I have and this isnt final but i think this is what i have so far:::
OH yeah and tomorrow i go to Miami to see the elbow doctor and talk about surgery on my arm eeeehhh scary
1. House of the rising sun
2. Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down
3. Taking Back Sunday - Your so last summer
4. Taking Back Sunday - Your own disaster
5. Shinedown - 45
6. My song for Nat, tattooed memories
Not sure from there or if you people even want there to be more songs.. if you do tell me some artists that you like and maybe i can do ya a favor ;). I'll also have some more songs that i've written in there maybe. let me know what ya'll think |
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| Mo money |
[Dec. 14th, 2004|03:29 pm] |
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Under recents comments, the price of the tickets has now been raised to two dollars lol.
Oh and i'm working on something for nat for christmas, any of the other bradys ask me about it, i need yoru help!!! sorry Nat you cant ask, its a surprise lol your gonna love it. |
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| Give me your money! |
[Dec. 14th, 2004|01:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  dorky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | me | ] |
So i've been thinking of ways to raise money to help pay for my $200 ticket and i've come up with a couple of ideas. My first idea was to sell my body but 1) its illegal and 2) who the heck would want to pay for that. My second idea was to get a job but victoria's secret hasnt called me back yet. So my third and final option was to put on a concert and yes i am going to be doing it. Every one is invited, and tickets are only a dollar a peice. Be the first to experience the masterful, beautiful music of "Mike unplugged and loving it". I'll have more information on when and where it will be but everyone is invited and i expect all the brady's to show up and to bring your friend (and lighters for the slow songs). Yes there will be my normal goofy ass songs that will make everyone laugh, but then there will be serious songs such as the one i wrote of Nat, and song froms people like oooohhh idk taking back sunday maybe some others who knows. oh yeah, requests are available. So whether you wanna help pay for my ticket, just want to laugh at me attempting to be musically inclined, or you just love me enough to pretend your my friend then be there or be square. and even if the music sucks who knows it might be cool to watch me smash my guitar at the end haha.
The truth, is that you could slit my throat. And then i'd be really upset cuase dude you just killed me so fuck your shirt haha. <-That was Awesome |
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